Monday, March 25, 2013

Slow down

Pink Think: "Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast -- you also miss the sense of where you are going and why." - Eddie Cantor

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I am writing this post as penance. An epiphany. A second chance.

Life had been going good lately. No; more than good. Fabulous!

This March has been a terribly busy, but productive month. A community event I was doing advertising for was wrapping up, and I was happy to focus back on my business, which was picking up. In fact, this past Friday, I was on my way to meeting a potential client.

My freshman son was going to get to play on Varsity, and I'd found an Under Armor shirt for him on sale. I decided to squeeze time to drive home ten minutes away, deliver his shirt, then drive back ten minutes to Tooele, and meet with the client.

After getting my son his shirt, I put my foot on that gas pedal. I was going to make it to my meeting. So bent was I on speeding to my appointment, I didn't notice the police lights until I was already cruising down the highway.

I pulled over and waited, feeling chills rack my body.

Not a speeding ticket, please. Not another speeding ticket.

I held out my driver's license as the officer came to my window. "Hello," I told her, filled with relief. She looked like she was maybe a mom like me. Maybe she'd understand.

She told me how fast I was going by the school. "You were haulin'," she said with a concerned smile. "Are you in a hurry, or something?"

I admitted yes, I was. I began a litany of where I needed to be when, but my words sounded lame to my ears, because of what she said afterwards, as she started to write me up a citation: "I was worried because kids were out for lunch."

I began to cry. Not just because I was embarrassed to be pulled over along a highway very visible to my neighbors. Not just because of what this new ticket meant in terms of my wallet or my insurance. Not just because, in speeding to my appointment, I was going to be even more late.

I cried because I felt like it was a well-deserved wake up call. If someone had been speeding by my kid's school, and hit my kid because they were so hell-bent on making an appointment in an over-scheduled day...

The thought shook me up.

When I got home, I confessed to my kids (two of whom are teen drivers): "I got a speeding ticket and I'm not proud of it." I told them that I was not a good example. That nothing was worth speeding and breaking the law.

***
Speeding is a hard habit to break. Just 9 mph over. That used to be my mantra. I've been trying to be good on the road, since. I put my truck on cruise control and allow myself extra time to get places. I look around and pay attention.

I want to be like some people who take the day easy. They still work hard, but they're not running to the next appointment. They're not trying to glamourize busy-ness. They're not addicted to this sense that if they stop moving, the world will come crashing down. (Truth is, it won't.)

Slow down. Wise words to live by.


2 comments:

LM Preston said...

It's funny how we have to make ourselves slow down to appreciate all we've done and received.

G. B. Miller said...

Sometimes its wickedly tough to break the speeding habit, but it is well worth the effort.

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